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Thursday, December 17, 2009

Short Days, Long Light, Cool Weather and Rain = Blue

My anti-gravity chair is sitting in the store room under the stairs folded up, for now. The rain has finally stopped, for now. The days are short, the light is long, and the cool days are here to stay, for now.

Maybe it is the time of the year, the shortness of the days, the cool-for-Malaysian weather, or the darker days that come with long-awaited rains, but I find myself in a funk. Not a deep funk, but a funk none-the-less. All of the above contribute no doubt, but something else has brought me to this “blue” mood …

Each day each of us gets out of bed, goes through our morning ablutions, and then gets on with whatever it is we do in our lives to acquire wealth, pay the bills, feed our families, or just get through the day. Although my life path is not much different than most, I too go through the daily ritual mentioned above, more or less. My path through the day, however, is more mental than physical, and my daily “walk-walk” covers much thoughtful grounds.

You see, as a trader, I spend quite a bit of time in my head. My goal is to find worthwhile thoughts, untwist those thoughts to find the clarity, and then figure out how to express those thoughts to my fellow traders in such a way as to enlighten, entertain and enrich in that order. The mental machination I do is to work out a trade, albeit work I like doing, but it is still work. Daily, that work also includes learning whatever I can about global economics, financial workings, government policy, markets, trading, trends, and you. Yes, you …

Trading has often been described as a solitary endeavor. It can be for those who trade for themselves, but for those of us who trade with/for others, it is not solitary. It is a partnership with known but yet unknown partners. It is a pact with ghosts, if you will.
You are out there, somewhere, unknown to me unless you appear before me, which is your part in our unwritten pact. My part in this pact is to call you with my words, to open the door for you to appear in my world, to inspire you to speak as you trade …

As I trade
this morning, as I do my work, a thought is untwisting in my head. Perhaps something other than the short days, the long light, or the dark days rainy weather brings is pushing me into this blue space. A void has come into that part of my day focused on learning, learning about you.

Lately I have been missing you, I would have to say. Perhaps my call to you has been unclear, perhaps I have not opened the door wide enough for you to enter into my thoughtful world, perhaps I forgot the WELCOME mat or perhaps my words lack inspiration enough for you to speak back to me. Whatever the reason, your ethereal presence has not appeared lately. Oh yes, ZL have not seen you for quite a while .......

Truthfully, my work becomes more difficult when no voice calls back, when no presence appears. I become a trader trading for myself, which is a solitary and somewhat unforgiving endeavor.

Maybe the time of the year defines all our moods, more or less. Maybe this time of the year causes everyone to slow down, nestle in, hunker down, stay home or stay away from the markets. Maybe, this is what you have done, and that is why you have not appeared in awhile. No matter, my funk is temporary, I am sure, and it has no bearing on whether I will get up each morning and do what I do in my day. I will continue doing what I do because I know long and warm days, the Malaysian sun, and you are only gone for the moment.

Trade in the day; invest in your life …

Regards,
ZL

2 comments:

  1. Missing someone is painful. You may be heartbroken, and struggling to adapt to your new life with this person missing.

    Anyway, life still needs to go on. Dont worry, be happy. The missing person will be touched by your article. CHEER UP ZL !!

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  2. May you be well and happy.

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